Lemon Drops and Tequila Shots

When, for the millionth time in my life,

someone said it’s true, but I can’t

I took a shot

and wept for a day

and then I got up

and kept going.

You asked if my heart was broken.

My heart's been broken since high school.

I've learned to sew her up

with each

It's true, but I can't

they uttered

through lemon drops

and tequila shots.

I've learned to carry on

through the looks I get from friends

through the hearts made through hands.

When the world is fuzzy I'm strong

and when you're the only thing I can see clearly

I'm stronger.

The bottom of this glass

is covered in images

of you in my bed

of you under my arm

and how much closer you'd lean toward me

if we emptied it together.

But I'll go home instead of out tonight

and wonder

if I had just loved harder

would it have made a difference

if I hadn't had that second drink.

If I had had a third.